My favourite movies of 2017

Hello, beautiful people!

After writing about my favourite books and TV shows of 2017, I am concluding this list with my favourite movies of last year. True, we’re already January 12th (wait, my birthday is in exactly a month), but it’s never too late to talk about what you love, right? Now, I don’t watch that many movies, because I have a limited attention span when it comes to them, I don’t fall in love with that many of them, but when I do… It lasts for years. While I was writing this post, I watched all of the trailers of these movies again, considered changing the order so many times (except for #1) and wanted to rewatch them again. It surely shows that I really adore them and I’m so excited to talk about them!

(Side note: If you’re interested in any of them, I linked all the trailers with the titles of the movies.)

6. Paterson, dir. by Jim Jarmusch (2016)

Paterson is the most surprising of my favourite movies of the year and it also was one of the last movies I watched. Had I watched it last year, I might have been bored, but it was exactly what I needed when I watched it. Paterson tells the story of a bus driver who loves to write poetry, whose life you follow during seven days. 

When I rewatched the trailer, it said, at some point: “Beauty is often found in the smallest details” and I couldn’t sum up the movie any better. It’s quiet, it’s poetic, it’s about the triumphs and failures of daily life, it’s about escaping through what you love. The only thing I didn’t really get was Paterson’s wife, she really annoyed me, but it couldn’t prevent me to fall in love with this movie. I have to confess that yes, I did watch it for Adam Driver (I’m very predictable, aren’t I?) and he was so brilliant in it, I loved how it focused on his voice when his character was writing poetry, it’s one of my favourites of his performances for sure. 

5. Wonder, dir. by Stephen Chbosky (2017)

Wonder was originally a middle-grade novel written by R.J. Palacio, that tells the story of Auggie, a young boy who has a rare facial deformity and has been homeschooled his entire life. At twelve, he’s finally going to school for the first time, where he’ll be cast away, before slowly being accepted. It also has  the points of view of different characters, such as his sister Via, other students and so on.

As a matter of fact, I haven’t read the book (*audience gasps*), but I absolutely fell in love with the movie. I thought it delivered so many beautiful messages, I loved watching the characters and their dynamics develop, as well as the story that made me cry quite a few times. I also really loved the cast, the kids were the absolute cutest and it had Daveed Diggs (aka the original Lafayette/Jefferson from the musical Hamilton). I’m already looking forward to watch this wonder again (yes, that pun was intended, because it truly is what it was).

4. Beauty and the Beast, dir. by Bill Condon (2017)

I am pretty sure I don’t have to tell you what Beauty and the Beast is all about, since it’s a well-known tale written in the 18th century, the 2017 movie being a live-action version of the 1991 version. Before finally watching it, I had been anticipating it for such a long time, I had pretty much lost it the day it was announced that Dan Stevens would be the Beast (once again, I am very predictable). 

I was a bit scared, but well, of course I loved it. The cinematography is absolutely stunning, adding new details to give more depth to the story was quite a wonderful idea – especially for me, who is obsessed with the 18th century -, it made us have some new content. Hearing the songs again – in English and not in French, as I have grown up since the animated version – was absolutely wonderful and I completely fell in love with one of the new ones, Evermore. I can’t even tell you how many times I have listened to it since March, how much I adore it. I also loved the choreographies of the musical numbers so much! It is now one of my feel-good movies, it always puts a huge smile when I watch it (except that I cry at the end and make comments about Dan Stevens the entire time, but it’s fun, I swear).

3. Hidden Figures, dir. by Theodore Melfi (2016)

Hidden Figures is about the untold story of black female mathematicians who worked at NASA during the Space Race, more specifically focusing on Katherine Johnson, who calculated flight trajectories for Project Mercury, Dorothy Vaughan, a NASA supervisor and Mary Jackson, NASA’s first black female engineer. It is based on the non-fiction book of the same name written by Margot Lee Shetterly, that I read afterwards and absolutely adored (I cried several times).

This movie means so much to me, because it’s so inspiring. Seeing these women fighting to have as much as everyone else made me want to work hard to follow my dreams as well and they all became my role models (even more after I read the book). It was infuriating at times, because of the way they were treated, considering it was set in 1960s America, but it was so full of hope by the end and things were starting to be as they should be. The entire cast did an amazing job, I wanted to wear the same outfits than the characters, I still listen to the soundtrack when I study, I just adore this movie so much.

2. La La Land, dir. by Damien Chazelle (2017)

La La Land tells the story of Seb, a jazz pianist, and Mia, an aspiring actress, who meet and fall in love in Los Angeles while following their dreams. There was so much hype around this movie, considering it came out right before award season and it got so many of them (I stayed up all night to watch the Oscars for it, that’s how obsessed I was). I saw it the day of its opening in France, because I was way too excited and I wasn’t disappointed at all. To this day, I have a poster of it on top of my bed as well as a sticker that reads: ‘here’s to the fools who dream, foolish as they may seem’ on my bullet journal.

It was quite the movie for me, because it’s a musical, has a stunning cinematography (I’ve been saying that for most of the movies, I love when they’re aesthetically pleasing for sure), is poetic, makes me dream and inspires me to be the best version of myself (and not to listen to everyone else, because like Seb said ‘F*** ’em’). It’s another of those movies that I watch whenever I feel down, whenever I need to find motivation. I can’t put into words how much it brought me for the past year, but I really love it.

Just like with my favourite books of 2017, my favourite movie of the year was La La Land, until I saw…
(the next gif was in the trailer, that’s why I put it anyway, I’m not sure it counts as spoilers haha)

1. Star Wars: The Last Jedi, dir. by Rian Johnson (2017)

As I’m writing those words on January 9th (yes, I’m back at scheduling my posts), I have seen The Last Jedi six times. As you’re reading this on January 12th, I’m probably at my seventh round or will be after this weekend (thanks to my unlimited movie card, I can actually do this, otherwise it wouldn’t be possible). I can’t exactly tell you what it’s about, as it’s the second movie of the sequel trilogy (if this isn’t confusing for someone who doesn’t watch the movies) and it might be my favourite (don’t kill me, I totally stand by what I just wrote, I grew up with Star Wars, but “this is something else”*).

The Last Jedi is the right movie for me. That’s the only way to put it. I watched it that many times because I need it, because it always makes me feel better, because it gets me (I’m not going to explain, but it really does). Every time I go back, I say that I’m not ready, sits on the edge of my seat because I’m completely engrossed, discover a new detail I hadn’t seen before. I know all of Kylo Ren’s lines, smiles like an idiot, always cries/gets teary-eyed at the same parts. I’m realising that I’m not even explaining what’s so good about it, but per usual, I loved the cinematography (still screaming about my favourite scene), the actors (okay, well, Adam Driver, but also Daisy Ridley, Oscar Isaac, John Boyega and everyone else), the plot and most of all, the characters, because I relate way too much to them. Some people didn’t like it, or The Force Awakens for that matter, but I adore the sequel movies so much and I stand by that statement and I’m so thankful to have The Last Jedi in my life now.

*yeah, I’m quoting the movie for literally anything…

So there you have it, here are my six favourite movies of the year! Don’t hesitate to tell me what your favourite movies of 2017 were!

Lots of love,

My favourite books of 2017

Hello, beautiful people!

With only two days left of 2017, I thought now would be the perfect time to talk to you about my favourite books of the year. It was actually quite easy to make the list for once and I can say that I truly adored them, because upon writing this post, I wanted to reread them all. This post is a bit long, that’s for sure, so let’s start it right away!

10. Tash Hearts Tolstoy by Kathryn Ormsbee

I don’t read a lot of YA contemporary novels, but sometimes, I stumbled upon some that gets me. Tash Hearts Tolstoy was such a novel. This novel is about Tash, the creator of a webseries that’s a modern take on Anna Karenina, who finds herself in the spotlight after a shoutout from a famous YouTuber. When her webseries is nominated for an award, the perspective that her flirt with a fellow award nominee might become something more IRL dawns on her, because she has to figure out how to tell her crush she’s romantic asexual. It might not be the greatest novel, I do realise that, but before I met Tash (and Molly from The Upside of Unrequited), I had never met another character I could relate to that much, which is why this novel will always have a special place in my heart. 

9. The Upside of Unrequited by Becky Albertalli

“I don’t entirely understand how anyone gets a boyfriend. Or a girlfriend. It just seems like the most impossible odds. You have to have a crush on the exact right person at the exact right moment. And they have to like you back. A perfect alignment of feelings and circumstances. It’s almost unfathomable that it happens as often as it does.” 

I read Simon vs. the Homosapiens Agenda when it came out two years ago and loved it, but not as much as everyone else. I went into The Upside of Unrequited without any expectations and ended up reading it in one sitting, because I found so much of myself in Molly. My sixteen years old self was so much like Molly, with a million crushes without doing anything, self-conscious, suffering from anxiety and weird around boys. Sometimes, I was reading her reactions, thinking: “Well, if this isn’t me”. The Upside of Unrequited is the book I wish 16 yo me could have read, for it would have made her love herself more and stop caring about getting a boyfriend before the end of high school (I’d like to scream at myself that it was very stupid haha).

Me @ 16 yo me
(someone is way too obsessed with Kylo Ren, but I’m not even sorry)

8. Strange the Dreamer by Laini Taylor
“He read while he walked. He read while he ate. The other librarians suspected he somehow read while he slept, or perhaps didn’t sleep at all.” 

I discovered Laini Taylor through her Daughter of Smoke and Bone trilogy a few years ago, and I had fallen in love with her writing style as well as her unique universe. Like so many readers, I anticipated Strange the Dreamer for two years, being a bit sad when its release date was pushed back at the end of 2016, and yet, it did not disappoint. Once again, I loved Taylor’s writing style, the world-building of this new world, and most of all, Lazlo Strange, one of the most relatable characters for us bookworms out there. He read all the time and that was his strength. He even broke his nose because a big book fell on him once. Strange the Dreamer was quite an adventure and it swooped me in from the very first line. I haven’t talked that much about it on social media, but this very poetic story is quite special to my heart and I cannot wait to get my hands on the sequel, The Muse of Nightmares.  

7. Making Faces by Amy Harmon

“Everybody is a main character to someone…” 

I am so happy I finally started reading Amy Harmon’s books this year. Like I said, I don’t read a lot of contemporary novels, and yet, this is the third one that won its place in this top. From the first moment I started reading this book, I fell in love with Harmon’s writings, put way too many post-its because there were so many quotes I wanted to remember. Everything the author wanted to talk about was very important and done in the right way, I know this one left a lasting impression on me. The main characters were absolutely amazing, in their different ways. I can’t tell you who I loved the most between Fern, Bailey or Ambrose. I went into Making Faces expecting another romance, got out of it having read one of the best contemporary novels I had ever read. I see myself rereading it years after years, falling in love with it every single time.

6. Wintersong by S. Jae-Jones

“There is music in your soul. A wild and untamed sort of music that speaks to me. It defies all the rules and laws you humans set upon it. It grows from inside you, and I have a wish to set that music free.”

Wintersong has a lot of mixed reviews on Goodreads – some of them from fans of Labyrinth, because it’s not really a retelling of it apparently, but I haven’t watched the movie, so I don’t really mind – but this is another book that spoke to my soulWintersong the story of Liesl, whose sister is taken underground by the goblins. Liesl goes there to rescue her and makes a pact with the Goblin King: a life for a life. She agrees to marry the Goblin King and the more time she spends underground, the more her life fades away and the more her musical talents grow.

It is set in 18th century Austria, the main character’s full name is Elizabeth, the Mozart family is mentioned a few times, music plays an important part in it and it might have my favourite cover ever (go check what it looks like, please). One of the scenes gave me strong Evermore vibes, because I’m very obsessed with this song (a new song from Beauty and the Beast), but you know. Now, all of those elements seem very random, but they all mean something for me in different ways, and it’s one of the reasons I adored this book so much.

5. Tess of the d’Ubervilles by Thomas Hardy

“Did it never strike your mind that what every woman says, some women may feel?”

Last year, I discovered Thomas Hardy with Far from the Madding Crowd and it was my favourite book of the year. In 2017, I read a lot more of Hardy’s novels and he became one of my favourite authors, I’d trust him with anything. Tess of the d’Ubervilles was the second of his novels that I read and it left me speechless. Thomas Hardy, while being a Victorian era (aka from a totally different time) writer, stood up for women in his writings, showing how much men could be at fault and should be held accountable for their actions (we still have a long road to go, even though we’re almost in 2018). In Tess of the d’Ubervilles, he portrays two men in a completely different way while showing all of their flaws, and makes us wonder what is right and what is wrong, in very specific situations. I cannot express how much I loved this book, but Thomas Hardy definitely is one of my favourite authors and I need to read all of his books.

4. The Loving Spirit by Daphne du Maurier

“High above the clustered houses and the grey harbour waters of Plyn, the loving spirit smiles and is free.”

I first read Daphne du Maurier’s novels this year and she quickly became one of my favourite authors. I had put My Cousin Rachel in this spot at first, but realised it wasn’t right and almost didn’t put anything by her in here, because I hadn’t rated The Loving Spirit five stars, at least not at first. Then, I remember how much I loved this book. It was du Maurier’s debut, it’s a family saga on four generations and it is set in Cornwall. I could feel the sea whenever I was reading the book, it became an actual character in the novel and I loved it so much, since I’m obsessed with it. The characters were so interesting, complex and deeply flawed. Every time I finished reading about one of them, I became so sad, because I didn’t want to say goodbye, and then I read about the next generation and felt for them. 

In a way, the Coombe family became mine, as I was along them in their hardships, their joys, their pains, their dreams. From the second I finished this book, I started missing it. I badly want to reread it, because it somehow feels like home. Du Maurier gets my feelings for the sea, as we have the same ones, and I’m so grateful I realised that while reading The Loving Spirit. 

3. The Tenant of Wildfell Hall by Anne Brontë

“My heart is too thoroughly dried to be broken in a hurry, and I mean to live as long as I can.” 

Anne Brontë is often seen as the forgotten Brontë sister, but she might be my favourite. I read Wuthering Heights by Emily and Jane Eyre by Charlotte a few years ago, but never got around to read anything by Anne, until this year. I didn’t know what I expected, but I completely fell in love with this novel. I had only started getting back into classics, but it’s definitely the book that made me realise I never wanted to stop reading them. Victorian England definitely wasn’t ready for Anne Brontë and that’s one of the reasons I admire her so much. I absolutely adored reading about Helen, the way Anne portrayed relationships and the darkness of the human soul. She was much more of a realist when you compare her to her sisters, and it might be why her books aren’t as talked about as theirs. In any case, The Tenant of Wildfell Hall is one of my favourite classics ever.

Actual footage of me with The Tenant of Wildfell Hall.

2. Lord of Shadows (The Dark Artifices #2) by Cassandra Clare

“Everyone is afraid of something. We fear things because we value them. We fear losing people because we love them. We fear dying because we value being alive. Don’t wish you didn’t fear anything. All that would mean is that you didn’t feel anything.”

You probably all know I adore Cassandra Clare’s books and that they mean the world to me, as they made me read in English. Lady Midnight, the first book in The Dark Artifices trilogy, was the book I waited the most on in my life, and I completely fell in love with it. Lord of Shadows didn’t disappoint me either: I absolutely loved how Clare talked about topical subjects, wrote amazing characters, plotlines and relationships once again. As I’m writing those words, I’m reading this book for the third time of the year, and there couldn’t be any better way to end the year. I can’t put into words how much I love this book and I still haven’t been able to write my review. Nevertheless, it’s absolutely amazing and the Shadowhunters books only get better and better with every single one of them.

Lord of Shadows was actually my favourite book of the year for a long time, until I read…

1. Les Misérables by Victor Hugo

“The power of a glance has been so much abused in love stories, that it has come to be disbelieved in. Few people dare now to say that two beings have fallen in love because they have looked at each other. Yet it is in this way that love begins, and in this way only.” 

I’m sure most of you won’t be surprised, considering I’ve been talking about this one a lot and told everyone it was my favourite book of the year anyway. *Ahem* Les Misérables and I actually have a lot of history and you can read about that here. It’s one of the best books I have read in my entire life, I read it in three days. I put way too many post-its in it, loved the characters and all the historical details, ‘accidentally’ fell in love with Marius Pontmercy (which makes absolutely no sense, but anyway), laughed, cried, gasped. I own a 1662 page long edition and yet I want to reread it again and again. It’s nothing to say that it is a masterpiece, but it is a masterpiece and it changed my life.

So there you have it, here are my favourite books of 2017. I hope you had an amazing year reading-wise. I’d love to know what your favourite books of the year were!

Lots of love,

How my reading life changed in 2017

Hello, beautiful people!

The end of the year is coming upon us and while, like every year, I’m planning to make a list of the best books that I read, I’ve come to realise that many things have changed in my reading life this year. When I came back to blogging a few months ago, I realised I couldn’t be the blogger I used to be, posting book reviews most of the time, because that wasn’t necessarily the way I wanted to focus on books anymore, as I wasn’t even reading the same books as I used to. That’s how I came up with this blog post, which is basically a reflection about what changed for me this year and who I became as a reader.

I joined bookstagram

Now, you’ll tell me that it didn’t exactlyimpact on my reading life, but it actually did. Trying to work on a bookstagram account was one of my goals for this year, and while I was, at first, dreadful at it, I have to say that I improved over the past few months and I’m somehow proud of myself (now, if I could live in places with lighting, it’d make my life easier). Bookstagram made me discover so many new books, especially beyond the young adult genre (but more on that later), and it was way easier to share about books for me this way (that’s also why I’ve been blogging differently). I’m now talking with so many people who share my tastes in books so easily, I don’t regret this decision for an instant, because this community brought me so much. However, I have to confess that because of bookstagram, I bought way too many books this year, mostly because I wanted to take pictures with all the books… But I shall come back to my e-reader in 2018. That was my bad, haha. 

I don’t think about the number of books per month/year anymore

Maybe it won’t be a big revelation for some of you, but I used to challenge myself when I was reading and that’s how I ended up reading more than 200 books in 2015. I’ve certainly calmed down since then, even though I still do read a lot. Trying to read more and more made me feel guilty to read books I wouldn’t get through as quickly as others, and I don’t want that anymore. As it’s the end of the year, I keep seeing people being worried about not reaching their Goodreads challenge, when I haven’t really looked at mine for the last six months. Yes, it’s easy for me to say, considering I completed it a long time ago, but still. When I write my wrap-ups, I don’t even count how many books I read anymore, I just make the list. I have noticed that I haven’t read as much as usual in December and I… don’t mind? WUT. I don’t like to think of reading as a competition – even with myself, because that’s what it was – and that’s why I’m not even going to set a proper Goodreads challenge for next year: I want to see how much I will read without it.

I stopped being scared of books because of their length

This statement is directly linked to the previous one, because while I started to read longer books in 2016 (aka the Outlanderbooks and a German classic), 2017 was definitely the year I stopped being scared of them. It goes with not really looking at how many books I read every month: I’m not scared because of a challenge, and I read the books I want to read, even though they might be longer than what I’d normally read. I read a couple of bigger classics such as Wives and Daughtersby Elizabeth Gaskell, and then… 

I read Les Misérablesby Victor Hugo. 

It probably is the longest book I have ever read, but it’s also one of the books I have loved the most in my life. I read it so quickly, because I couldn’t stop, and it still is on my mind, a month and a half after. A few months ago, I had told myself: ‘hey, maybe I’ll read this someday’, but I wasn’t sure. One day, when I was way too obsessed with the musical, I went to the bookstore, picked it up, started it the next day and finished it in three days. Afterwards, I was so proud of myself and felt so accomplished. I also realised that no book could stop me, if I had managed to read this one. Ever since then, I’ve added a lot of lengthy books to my wishlist, and I cannot wait to get to them, War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy being the first on the list.

I discovered buddy-reading

This isn’t completely true, because I started buddy-readings in 2015, but it didn’t always work out, to say the least. I’m a fast reader and always ended up finishing
the book we were reading way before my buddy (it actually still happens, oops). The truth is, we don’t all have the same amount of time to read, we don’t all read at the same pace and because of that, buddy-reading can be hard

But sometimes, you find the right buddy, someone who reads at the same pace than you, who will love the same books than you, and it somehow becomes natural, after some time. That’s how I ended up buddy-reading so many books with my friend Clara this past year: we started by buddy-reading Tess of the d’Ubervillesat the end of March because we wanted to read more English classics*, and nine months later, we have read fifteen books together**, we’re in the middle of Anna Kareninathat we’re reading with a friend, and we’ll buddy-read Lord of Shadows around Christmas time (the ultimate non-Christmas read, but anyway). I discovered how fun and motivating buddy-reading could be and I’m already looking forward to doing it again next year!

* spoiler alert: we read way more classics than we had anticipated and got addicted, so that was a success.
**according to my calculations, but keeping track of how many times we read Lady Midnight can prove tricky.

I opened up myself to more genres

I kept the most important thing for last, so here is a not-so-shocking confession: I don’t read a lot of YA anymore, when it was all I used to read. At the beginning of the year, I wanted to challenge myself by reading different genres, and while at the beginning, I was actually trying, by the end of the year… It felt natural. Over the past few months, I rediscovered my love for classics and historical fiction. I hadn’t realised how much I was talking about that until I was asked for recommendations, which surprised me and made me so happy that someone would trust me with such things. I also read more crime fiction/mystery (I had missed it) and got into non-fiction. I discovered that switching genres all the time prevented me from getting bored, getting reading slumps, and I felt way more fulfilled in my reading life, because everything was different. I have become quite a picky reader for YA, because I read so many of them in my entire life (like, really), but I still enjoy it and I’m definitely not looking down on YA. However, I grew so much as a reader and now need so many genres for my brain to be happy.

Overall, I couldn’t be happier with my reading year: it wasn’t the year I read the most, but it was the year I (re)discovered some genres and shared more and more with fellow readers. Here’s to hoping that 2018 will be equally as good or even better!

What has this reading year brought upon you? Have you noticed a lot of changes in your reading tastes in the past few years, like I did?

Lots of love,

    My favourite TV shows of 2017

    Hello, beautiful people!

    As the end of the year is coming to a close, it is time for many of us to write a lot of blog posts about all of our favourite things of the year. I am personally planning on making a list of my favourite books, TV shows and movies of 2017. Why am I starting with TV shows two weeks before the end of the year? you will ask. Well, I’ve already watched a lot of TV shows this year and while I’ll probably catch up on some shows for the two remaining weeks of the year (read: Brooklyn 99 and Doctor Who), I really need to focus on watching all the movies I still haven’t watched. Which is why you’re getting this one quite early!

    10. Harlots (2017)

    This period drama is set in 1763 London, where one in five women makes a living by selling sex. This show follows Margaret Wells, a brothel owner, as well as her two daughters, Charlotte and Lucy, all of them trying to get better lives for themselves. Margaret Wells decides to move her brothel in a new street to thrive, which makes her in conflict with Lydia Quigley, the owner of a high class brothel.  

    Now, from this summary, you might be unsure about this show. I know I was. Yes, there are sex scenes, but it is to be expected. However, it is an amazing and very addictive period drama that slays everything, even one of my favourite authors says so:

    The first season aired this year and the second one will come out next year, I cannot wait.

    9. Friends (1994-2004)

    It might be shocking to most people that I started watching Friends in December 2016, but well… I did. It’s the whole reason I got a Netflix subscription in the first place, because I really wanted to know what the hype was all about and to understand all of the references. To say the least, I wasn’t disappointed. I watched it in ten months, because I needed it to last. It was the show I turned to when I needed to feel better or to laugh, and it never failed me. Friends truly deserve all the hype, the entire world was right about it. My favourite character was Chandler for sure, but I have a little bit of each character’s personality within me, like everyone. I already know that when I feel down, I will rewatch it, because it truly helped me to go through 2017.

    8. The Crown (2016)

    The second season of The Crown was released last week on Netflix and yes, I already binge-watched it. The Crown already was one my favourite TV shows of last year and this second season did not disappoint. I loved that we got to focus a bit more on Elizabeth’s family, with entire arcs on Margaret, Philip, the duke of Windsor or even Charles. Once again, it was very informative, while never being boring. The cinematography was stunning and once again, the actors did an amazing job. I really hope it’ll get six seasons like they planned, and while I’m a bit sad to say goodbye to Claire Foy and Matt Smith as Elizabeth and Philip – they have planned to replace the actors every two seasons, so they actually have the same age that the characters they portray – I cannot wait to see how season 3 will be.   

    7. Poldark (2015)

    Poldark is based on Winston Graham’s novels and follows the story of Ross Poldark, a man who returns from the American War of Independence to Cornwall to discover that his father is dead, his estate in ruins and the woman he loves is engaged to his cousin. He decides to take control over his own mines again while helping the people of the village. I absolutely love Poldark because it is set in the 18th century in Cornwall, which means the scenery is absolutely gorgeous and I listen to the soundtrack all the time. I have to confess that while I loved the first season, I disliked the second one so much (Ross was the worst and it felt repetitive), to the point that I didn’t want to continue. I decided to watch the third season for Dwight Enys because I adore him* and it was so worth it. The third season had new characters such as Morwenna and Drake and it was absolutely amazing once again. I spent most of it
    suffering (because some awul things happened, but it was so good) and binge-watched it in three days, as I couldn’t stop. So yes, it’s back on my favourite shows list, and I have great expectations for season 4.

    *What do you mean, it might be because I think that he looks like Matthew Crawley? I have no idea wha you’re talking about.

    6. Victoria (2016)

    When I watched the first season of Victoria last year, I completely fell in love with it and it became my favourite show of the year. I was a bit scared the second season wouldn’t live up to it, but it still was amazing! This show follows the reign of Queen Victoria, as well as some secondary storylines about people close to her and the servants of the palace (did they try to make it a little like Downton Abbey? I guess so). I’ll always have a weakness for Prince Albert (especially portrayed by Tom Hugues), because he truly was amazing and it is shown in every episode. Everything was absolutely stunning, we even got an episode set in Scotland! I’m still waiting on the Christmas special episode that will be released in a few days, but I already know it’ll be amazing. 

    5. Crazy Ex-Girlfriend (2015)

    Another show that completely took me by surprise. It follows Rebecca Bunch, a top-notch lawyer living in New York city, who panics when she’s offered a partnership. When she bumps into Josh Chan, her first love from summer camp, she decides to move to West Covina, California where he lives, in search for happiness and to become his girlfriend. This show is a comedy-drama series with amazing musical numbers and the more episodes I watch, the more I love it. Rachel Bloom, who created it and plays Rebecca, is an absolute genius and I have nothing but respect for her. This show is hilarious, sad, serious and unexpected. It is hands-down the best TV show on the CW right now, in my opinion.  

    4. Stranger Things (2016)

    I’m pretty sure that Stranger Things needs no introduction, considering that every time a season is released, it’s all over the Internet – and with reason. The first season is set in Hawkins, Indiana, in 1983, where Will Byers, a 12 y.o. boy mysteriously disappears. His family and friends never give up on trying to find him, which might lead to strange discoveries… And it only gets strangers (#original). I absolutely love the retro vibes from this show and I think that the cast and their characters are fantastic! I binge-watched both seasons, because it’s quite an addictive and quality show, which made it into my favourite shows very quickly. It’s just perfect. 

    3. One Day at a Time (2017)

    One Day at a Time is a Netflix sitcom loosely based on the 1975-1984 show of the same name. It only has one season so far, but a second one is coming and it couldn’t make me happier. Sadly, this show is very underrated but it is everything. It follows the Alvarez family, Penelope, a single mom who used to be in the army, her two children Elena and Alex, and her mother Lydia, a faithful Cuban. It’s absolutely hilarious as well as clever, feminist and diverse. It only has thirteen episodes and they last about thirty minutes, so you’ll probably end up binge-watching the whole thing. Please, watch it.

    2. Gilmore Girls (2000-2007)

    Another show I only watched in 2017… I know, I’m late to the party. * hides in a corner * My best friend made me watch the first few episodes at the end of September, but I accidentally got way too addicted and binge-watched the whole thing (revival included) in a little less than three months. I’ve loved a lot of shows, but Gilmore Girls now has a special place in my heart. Before watching it and meeting Rory Gilmore, I had never related to a show that muchThere were so many similarities between my life and Rory’s that it sometimes hurt me… But also did me some good, I guess. If I hadn’t watched the show that’s number one in this list, Gilmore Girls would have been my favourite show of the year. It certainly is in my top 3 favourite shows of all times anyway. Also, can someone tell me we’ll someday get a second season to the revival? PLEASE.

    1. Legion (2017)

    Last but not least, my favourite show of 2017 is Legion. *shocked gasps from the audience* I already talked about it way too many times and even wrote an entire blog post about it, so you might want to read it if you haven’t yet. It’s better not to know much going into Legion, but it’s somehow a spin-off of X-Men. If you don’t understand what’s happening most of the time, it’s normal. To sum it up, this show is brilliant, has amazing actors, gorgeous cinematography, you will never know what to expect, and Dan Stevens is portraying the main character (you know how much I love Dan Stevens). Oh and it is seriously underrated, so… GO WATCH IT, OKAY? I’ll leave you with Leigh Bardugo’s tweet:

    So there you have it: my top 10 favourite shows of 2017! Do let me know if you’ve watched any of them, or what your favourite shows of the year were.

    Lots of love,


    Reading wrap-up + Favourites // November 2017

    Hello, beautiful people!

    This is it, we’re in December and I couldn’t be happier. I’m not a huge fan of the month of November and while this year, it was draining because of my anxiety, I still managed to enjoy as much as I could. I went on a three day trip with my family in Burgundy, attended the first ever Teen Book Club at Shakespeare & Co where we discussed Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda and skyped with Becky Albertalli, and saw my friends a lot. The biggest part of the month has been full of deadlines and Netflix, but December promises to be a lot more exciting!


    • Murder on the Orient Express by Agatha Christie 4/5 stars
    • Mansfield Park by Jane Austen 3/5 stars
    • Manderley Forever by Tatiana de Rosnay 3.5/5 stars
    • Les Misérables by Victor Hugo 5/5 stars
    • Oliver Twist by Charles Dickens 4/5 stars
    • Persuasion by Jane Austen 3.5/5 stars
    • Girlhood by Cat Clarke 4/5 stars
    • The Red Queen by Philippa Gregory 2/5 stars
    • The Return of the Native by Thomas Hardy 5/5 stars
    • Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer 4/5 stars
    • The House on the Strand by Daphne du Maurier 3/5 stars
    • Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo (reread) 5/5 stars 

    Once again, I had an amazing reading month! I am really happy with what I read in November, because it reflects who I am becoming as a reader. I only read two young adult novels and one of them was a reread, which would have seemed impossible, a year ago. I’m slowly moving towards new genres and it couldn’t make me happier, because I have so much more to discover. Also, switching genres help with reading slumps. I read two non-fiction books this month, one was a biography, the other about the meat industry and it makes me want to pick up more books in this genre, to learn more on every topic I’m interested in (you should see my Goodreads shelves, I keep adding more and more). I also read so many classics, I barely have any on my TBR now (but my TBR has almost been destroyed, so).

    I love Marius and Cosette a little too much. I also love Eddie Redmayne a little too much but that’s another story.

    Les Misérables

    I know, I know. I already published a blog post about it on Sunday. Nevertheless, Les Misérables made my November and that’s why I had to include it anyway. I read this 1662 pages long beast in three days and I couldn’t be prouder of myself. I fell in love with it even harder than when I read the abridged version all those years ago, I rewatched the musical and listened to the songs yet again. I even went on Les Misérables themed walks: to the house where Marius and Cosette lived, in front of Victor Hugo’s house that I’ll visit with my friend Clara later, but in the meantime, we went to the Panthéon to “visit” him and it was so much fun (as fun as visiting deceased authors can be, that is).

    TV SHOW // Gilmore Girls

    At the end of September, I finally started watching this show and it quickly became an addiction (I watched ten episodes in 24 hours because I was on holidays, oops). Ever since then, it has become a routine and I watched an episode during every meal (as I live on my own), when I was in the subway or in the train… You get the idea. I had never related that much to a show before, so I know it will always have a special place in my heart and I’ll rewatch it at some point. There were so many similarities between Rory’s life and mine, it was a little scary sometimes, but made me love the show even more. I also finished watching the revival yesterday and I really enjoyed it as well! I kinda want a second season, but I got so much more closure already, I wouldn’t mind if it wasn’t happening.

    TEA // Jasmine Organic Tea (Marks & Spencer)

    Because of Gilmore Girls, I’ve been drinking a lot of coffee lately (thanks, Lorelai and Rory), but tea still is my one true love and I started drinking it on a regular basis again in November. I’ve been drinking jasmine tea all the time, because it’s an herbal tea, it’s very sweet and makes me feel cosy and relaxed. My anxiety has been at its worst lately, but drinking this tea actually helped a little, it makes me feel lighter. I’m running out of it as you’re reading this, so I better go to the nearest Marks and Spencer to buy some.

    TV SHOW // Crazy Ex-Girlfriend

    I started watching Crazy Ex-Girlfriend at the beginning of the year and it totally took me by surprise. It’s funny, has interesting characters, has amazing songs (because yes, they’re acting, singing, dancing) and so much more. I binge-watched most of the episodes of season 3 this month and I have to say that this TV show keeps getting better and better. They did a parody of Empty Chairs at Empty Tables, which means it’s officially one of my favourite TV shows now. *whispers* Les Misérables is everywhere.

    Fantastic Beasts

    I know, I know. I’m a predictable human being and you can scream ‘AGAIN’ if you want. I’m obsessed with Fantastic Beasts  every two seconds anyway and even wrote a blog post about that. But, November was a Fantastic Beasts month, no one can deny this. In November, it was a year since the first movie came out and I watched it, it was a yea
    r until the next movie will be released and most of all, it was the month they revealed the title for the second movie!! Which is Fantastic Beasts: The Crimes of Grindelwald, if you missed the announcement. I rewatched the movie yet again in November, screamed a lot about it on social media, stared a lot at the illustrated version in a bookstore (it’ll be mine at some point, though) and even bought Fantastic Beasts themed candles. I’m helpless.

    I hope November was an amazing month for you!

    Lots of love,

    October 2017 wrap-up + favourites

    Hello, beautiful people!

    And just like that, October is over and we only have two months left of 2017. *gasps* October was a stressful month because uni started again for me at the end of September, but I’m satisfied with what I did, when it comes to studying, reading… and watching Gilmore Girls. For Gilmore Girls, I actually had to take a week long break from it because I had been watching the show way too fast, but now that we’re in November, I shall binge-watch it once again.


    • The Diviners by Libba Bray (reread) 4/5 stars
    • Lady Audley’s Secret by Mary Elizabeth Braddon 4/5 stars
    • The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde 5/5 stars
    • The Sun and her Flowers by Rupi Kaur 3/5 stars
    • A Different Blue by Amy Harmon 4/5 stars
    • Great Expectations by Charles Dickens (reread) 5/5 stars
    • Two on a Tower by Thomas Hardy 4/5 stars
    • Lady Midnight by Cassandra Clare (reread) 5/5 stars
    • Gothic Tales by Elizabeth Gaskell 3.5/5 stars
    • Forest of a Thousand Lanterns by Julie C. Dao 4/5 stars
    • The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins 4/5 stars
    • Ruth by Elizabeth Gaskell 5/5 stars
    • Dracula by Bram Stoker 4/5 stars

    I had an amazing reading month, both in quality and quantity and it’s all thanks to Victober. If you don’t know, it’s a readathon that takes place in October where you read Victorian literature. I loved it so much and I’m already excited to participate next year!


    To be honest, I could talk about Les Misérables and Gilmore Girls again, but they both were in my favourites of last month already, so it wouldn’t be really interesting. I also rewatched and loved the first season of Legion this month, but I already wrote an entire blog post about that, I’d rather read that if I were you! Now that I’ve said that, let’s move on to my other favourites of the month.

    TV SHOW // Victoria (season 2)

    Victoria was my favourite TV show of 2016 and I was beyond happy when the second season aired recently. I (mostly) binge-watched it in October and I fell in love with this period drama all over again. I’ve always been obsessed with Victoria and Albert, and I absolutely loved how they are portrayed in the show (Jenna Coleman and Tom Hughes are both very attractive and have tons of chemistry, it helps as well) and to learn a bit more about them – even though many aspects are romanticized. I am very emotionally invested in the show and I was pleasantly surprised by some things that happened (even though my heart was broken not so long after… you know what I mean). Besides, as it was Victober, so it was the perfect month to watch it! If you love period dramas, I would highly recommend you this one!

    MUSIC // Anastasia (the musical)

    I really needed a change from Les Misérables (my obsession would become unhealthy otherwise), so this month, I discovered Anastasia, the new Broadway musical. It’s inspired by the animated movie, with beloved songs such as Once Upon a December or Journey to the Past and I’ve been loving it. I’ve always found Russian history intriguing and I really want to read The Romanovs by Simon Sebag Montefiore now. I’m so looking forward to find a way to watch this musical, but in the meantime, the score is amazing!

    TV SHOW // Stranger Things (season 2)

    Well, you probably heard that the second season of Stranger Things aired on October 27th because it’s all the Internet has been talking about, so it won’t be a surprise if I talk about it. I watched the first season a while ago and absolutely fell in love with the show: the plot is addictive, the characters so relatable and I love that it’s set in the 1980s. I was afraid I would be disappointed by the second season, but on the contrary: I grew even more attached to the characters and like everyone else, I loved Steve so much (as well as the rest of the gang, but it was so surprising for Steve!). I’m already looking forward to rewatch the second season (do we really have to wait until 2019 for season 3?) in the next year or so.

    FOOD // Breakfast in America (Paris)

    If you follow me on Instagram, you probably noticed that I posted food pictures for several Sunday mornings and it’s all because of this place that I discovered in May. Breakfast in America is an American dinner in Paris (there are three of them) that serves breakfasts and brunches obviously, as well as burgers, chili con carne and so on. I’ve only ever been there for enormous breakfasts (veggie omelet with cheese or pancakes I can’t even finish) and I really love this place. I would totally recommend it if you’re in Paris to visit the city and need to eat a lot of food at once!

    I hope you had a great month and read amazing books!

    Lots of love,

    Reading wrap-up + Favourites // September 2017

    Hello beautiful people!

    September 2017 was probably the longest month of my entire life, or it certainly felt that way. Like my dear Charles Dickens said, “it was the best of times, it was the worse of the times.” and it sums up my entire month. I had some of the best days in my life when I went to London for a three day long week-end (the day of 19 years later and then I saw Les Misérables on West End)(I still can’t realise that I crossed two things off my bucket list in two days), then had a very important oral presentation for uni and I didn’t know if I could register for uni… Until five days before classes started. I am in a very weird mood. Because of that, I’ve watched way more TV shows than I have read, even though I still read nine books.


    • Wonder Woman: Warbringer by Leigh Bardugo ☆☆☆.5
    • The Witches of New York by Ami McKay ☆☆☆☆.5
    • And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie ☆☆☆☆☆ (reread)
    • Wives and Daughters by Elizabeth Gaskell ☆☆☆☆
    • The Steep and Thorny Way by Cat Winters ☆☆☆☆.5
    • Agnes Grey by Anne Brontë ☆☆☆☆☆
    • Viens, on s’aime by Morgane Moncomble ☆☆☆☆
    • Retribution Rails by Erin Bowman ☆☆☆☆☆
    • We Have Always Lived in the Castle by Shirley Jackson ☆☆☆☆

    I finally reread And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie and let me tell you: if you ever want to listen to an audiobook, do yourself a favor and listen to Dan Stevens’ interpretation of this novel. I know that I’m always singing his praise, but I’m still mind-blown. Now that I’ve read and loved Agnes Grey, I can say that Anne Brontë might be my favourite Brontë sister, but I don’t know for sure. I still need to read her poetry/her juvenilia writings and a biography about her, but I really feel close to Anne, for some reason. Last but not least, I got an e-ARC of Retribution Rails and I loved it even more than Vengeance Road (!!!). You definitely need to read it when it’ll release in November.


    MUSICAL // Les Misérables

    Les Misérables is very important to me and I’ll talk about it more in an upcoming post (but I first need to reread the beast book entirely), but I finally saw the musical on West End. I’ve always wanted to do it and I cried the entire time. I was so overwhelmed, how do you feel that many emotions at the same time? Anyhow, I’ve since then rewatched the movie and Eddie Redmayne will always be my Marius (he is my favourite actor, after all) and have been listening to the soundtrack (and nothing else!) for the last week. I just love Les Misérables so much, sometimes it hurts, haha.

    TV SHOW // Gilmore Girls

    Like I said, I watched a lot of TV shows in September and a lot of them could have made this list, but then I discovered Gilmore Girls and that’s the entire reason why I haven’t been reading. I’ve watched twenty-eight episodes in a week and a half and I already know that it’ll be one of my favourite TV shows ever. I’m drinking a lot of coffee once again and I’m going to blame it on Lorelai and Rory. I’m curious to see more of Paris Geller, because I already adore her, oops. 

    APPLICATION // Pedometer

    During the second half of August, I downloaded a pedometer app and it changed my life. Now that we’re in October, I’ve been using it for a while and guess what? I walked 204 km in September! As someone who never exercises, it really encourages me to walk more, since I wouldn’t have walked as much otherwise. I know that it’ll slow down as the cold is coming, but that’s a huge victory over myself!

    I hope you had a great month and read amazing books!

    Lots of love,

    Reading wrap-up + Favourites // August 2017

    Hello, beautiful people!

    The month of August has come to a close, which is so sad for me, because this month was full of holidays, the first long ones I’ve had in two years. I’m so not ready for real life to start again and to my anxiety to come back full force, but I guess every good thing must come to a close at some point. Enough with the sad thoughts, because August was such an amazing month for me and I’m so excited to talk about it.

    • Empire of Dust by Eleanor Herman 
    • Far from the Madding Crowd by Thomas Hardy ☆ (reread)
    • The Lily of the Valley by Honoré de Balzac 
    • Summer in February by Jonathan Smith 
    • Crystal Storm by Morgan Rhodes 
    • Emma by Jane Austen 
    • Travelling to Infinity by Jane Wilde ☆.5
    • Katherine of Aragon, the True Queen by Alison Weir 
    • The Changeling’s Journey by Christine Spoors ☆.75
    • L’Oubliée de Salperwick by Annie Degroote (French book) 
    • Jamaica Inn by Daphne du Maurier ☆☆☆☆.5
    • The Unexpected Everything by Morgan Matson ☆☆☆
    • The Tenant of Wildfell Hall by Anne Brontë ☆☆☆☆☆
    • Our Dark Duet by V.E. Schwab ☆☆☆☆
    • The Essex Serpent by Sarah Perry ☆☆☆
    August was an amazing reading month and I had decided to crush my TBR pile before going to London, which I did because I managed to read eleven books in two weeks. Yup. It was a month filled with classics, and I enjoyed every single one of those! Most of my favourite books of the month were classics, with my reread of Far from the Madding Crowd (my favourite book), Emma and The Tenant of Wildfell Hall. The only exception to this apparent rule was Crystal Storm, the fifth instalment in the Falling Kingdoms series, which I love so much.


    TV SHOW // Downton Abbey (rewatch)

    If you didn’t know, Downton Abbey is my favourite TV show and I really missed it. Somehow, I managed to rewatch the first three seasons in a week and a half (and even watched season 1 twice, oops) and it was so much fun to rewatch it with my best friend (sometimes I was just staring at Matthew and didn’t follow anything though). I loved it even more than the first time around, because it’s perfect for me. It’s filled with history, England, amazing plotlines, characters and relationships, and most importantly… Dan Stevens. Matthew Crawley is so perfect, I’ll cry forever.

    TV SHOW // Poldark

    Season 3 finished airing in the UK in August and after seeing people raving about it, I watched it in three days. I wasn’t a huge fan of season 2, but the third one was everything I wanted and more. I was so obsessed with it that I couldn’t think about anything else. This show truly is amazing and it makes me want to visit Cornwall someday (read: ASAP). Besides, I would protect Dwight Enys (has anyone else noticed that he looked a lot like Matthew Crawley?) and Morwenna Chynoweth at all costs.


    So. If you follow me on social media… You already know that I’m completely obsessed with Dan Stevens (and that’s an understatement). Well, I’ve been quite infatuated since Downton Abbey all those years ago, but it came ba
    ck full force this year (because of Legion and Beauty and the Beast) and in August? It got crazy. This month, I watched Summer in February (okay book, great movie), Criminal Activities (Dan’s character saved the movie because meh), rewatched Beauty and the Beast and Downton Abbey and started to listen to the audiobook he recorded for And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie. I’m helpless. I also need to rewatch Legion because it’s my favourite show of the year and I still have to wait six months for season 2 (sad months ahead)(also season 2 starts filming tomorrow!!).

    BOOKS // Daphne du Maurier

    In June, I discovered My Cousin Rachel by Daphne du Maurier and it became one of my favourite books of the year. In August, I watched the 2017 adaptation and it made me love the book even more (was it possible? Apparently). I also devoured Jamaica Inn, which was absolutely amazing and it left me craving for more. I’m currently reading The Loving Spirit (her debut novel) and I’m loving it. Then I really want to discover The House on the Strand, Frenchman’s Creek, The Birds and Rebecca obviously (but I’m taking my time with this one, because I’ve already watched an adaptation). Daphne du Maurier is becoming one of my favourite authors.

    EVENTS // Cassandra Clare and Holly Black’s signings in London 

    Last but certainly not least, on August 17th, I met Cassandra Clare and Holly Black. I’m still in shock. I went to London for the event basically and I will always cherish these memories. It was fun to meet Holly, who is hilarious, because I told her it was with The Spiderwick Chronicles I realised I was a fast reader and I showed her my very old copy. Meeting Cassandra Clare was a dream of mine and I never thought it would happen, least of all this year. I was freaking out but she was the nicest and we talked for so long! She used to live in Paris (like me) and we even talked in French (!!). I also told her I had started to read in English for Clockwork Prince and she was so surprised, but what can I say. One of the best moments of my life.

    What was the best book you read in August? 
    What were your favourite things this month?

    Lots of love,

    Reading wrap-up + Favourites // July 2017

    Hello, beautiful people!

    It’s been a long time since I wrote anything here, but there I am, on holidays for the first time in *gasp* two years (wait, it means that I haven’t gotten a real one since I started this blog? Wut). The past few months have been pretty dense and draining, but finally, I missed blogging. If this isn’t one of the biggest blogging slumps of ever, I don’t know what it was. Per usual, I read tons of books, even though I was at my internship all weekdays; because what is sleep? Or eating? I dunno.

    Let’s move on to the books though, or I’ll start to ramble. In July, I read a grand total of sixteen books.
    • Death on the Nile by Agatha Christie ☆☆☆☆
    • Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare (reread) ☆☆☆☆☆
    • Clockwork Prince by Cassandra Clare (reread) ☆☆☆☆☆
    • Clockwork Princess by Cassandra Clare (reread) ☆☆☆☆☆
    • The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee ☆☆☆☆
    • The Lady of the Rivers by Philippa Gregory ☆☆☆☆
    • The White Queen by Philippa Gregory ☆☆☆☆
    • Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire by J.K. Rowling (reread) ☆☆☆☆☆
    • The Secret History by Donna Tartt ☆☆☆☆☆
    • The Dark Days Pact by Alison Goodman ☆☆☆☆
    • The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood ☆☆☆☆☆
    • Saints for All Occasions by J. Courtney Sullivan ☆☆☆
    • The Names They Gave Us by Emery Lord ☆☆☆☆
    • La chanson des enfants perdus by Béatrice Bottet ☆☆☆
    • The Story of a New Name by Elena Ferrante ☆☆☆☆
    • Hamilton: The Revolution by Lin-Manuel Miranda and Jeremy McCarter ☆☆☆☆☆

    I had an amazing reading month and didn’t really dislike any book, which is such a relief, as I really don’t want to lose my time with books I don’t like anymore. My favourite books of the month were by far: The Secret History, The Handmaid’s Tale and Hamilton: The Revolution, if I don’t include my rereads obviously. It was a month of not reading that much YA apparently and I’m not really surprised to be honest.


    TV SHOW – The White Queen

    This month was all about historical fiction in terms of reading, but also for TV shows. I had started watching The White Queen when it aired four years ago, but then, I stopped for no reason at all. This time around, I became so obsessed with it; because I don’t know a lot about the War of the Roses, but I’m always eager to see British history on TV. I loved how it centered around different women and I ate the whole season in a matter of days. After that, I decided I wanted to read Philippa Gregory’s book series, which is why I haven’t watched The White Princess yet, for I want to be caught up with the books.

    MUSIC – Sara Farell’s cover of It Ain’t Me and I Don’t Wanna Live Forever

    About 90% of what I listened to originated from a musical or a movie (I listen to soundtracks all the time, even if it’s only instrumental), but sometimes, I try new playlists on Spotifyand that’s how I discovered Sara Farell’s covers of It Ain’t Me and I Don’t Wanna Live Forever. I became absolutely obsessed; because it was acoustic versions and I listened to It Ain’t Me on repeat for 24 hours, as it fit so well with something that were happening in my life. I owe you, Spotify!

    What have you been up to this month? What was the best book you read?

    Lots of love,